Mr. or Ms. Mar, the consequence of this emotionally charged experience is well known in the world of psychologist. The term is Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome. What you have in the back of your mind is that you could have been killed or you could have killed someone. You were nineteen years old is data that verifies that you were a new driver, not in your perception, but you were. Teens manage to crash over one million times each year. Over 400,000 get injured and of those thousands end up with life long crippling handicap level ones. From fire burns, loss of limbs, facial injuries, loss of motion, loss of sight, loss of brain abilities, etc. the list is as ample as our abilities to function. Besides psychological counseling, and I do recommend that you do get counseled, skills as to driving can be acquired professionally via advanced driving courses that teach knowledge, science, human limits and car handling in controlled school environments. I go to MId-Ohio School for such courses. Our meager state minimum standards for issuing licenses was set in the 1930's for a six grade educational level. The purpose is to allow people to work and to not be a hindrance as to opportunity. The dichotomy of parents buying cars for teens but no advanced driving classes is reflected in the grim statistics as to teen driving. The function of training, for example, is to tell drivers of all ages that the human eye has problems as to detection of hazards. To tell drivers that the speed of a vehicle needs to be decided by accurate information for a speed limit on a road is ONE of the many factors to consider. Traffic, the mental condition of the driver, the status of the car, the weather conditions, day or night conditions, the weight of the vehicle, towing, and many more. Last Saturday I witnessed a rear end collision on a side street, 30 MPH speed limit, mid afternoon, dry weather. On this road there are two all-way stops between an Interstate and an US highway. A couple had stopped, as required, at one of the intersections I was approaching. A female driver distracted, not looking forward and not in active charge of the driving situation, did not notice the car's brake lights. She hit the stopped car. Her van was severely damaged. Air bags deployed. The back of the car hit was severely damage. No injuries. I was amazed at how in such simple conditions there could be a crash. For you I recommend advanced driving school. Search for "teen driving courses" in your areas. Tirerack.com, Ford, Mercedes, AAA and insurance companies as well as tracks offer such courses. Well worth the money. The driver of this Corvette was speeding and not paying attention. Look carefully at the photograph. There are not tire skid marks. This happened at an intersection ( I call them "imperfections"). And the car hit was lifted off the surface due to the design of the Corvette. This could have gone much worse. Go to "Wreckedexotics.com" to see more photographs, some deadly, of people with money for expensive cars but zero brains for lessons. I have standards. My bias, my norm, THE rule, as to stop signs and traffic lights is to stop. The bias of most people is to look for a reason to stop. I almost got hit at a crosswalk, with a protected light on my favor, by a guy that his bias, as it is for most people, is to stop ON the crosswalk. Just observe any intersection with these painted markings. I have and I do. People treat the far line as THE stop line. Are you one of them? Some get 100% involved with the smartphone. After all, they are stopped. Right? Not keeping up with traffic, people, animals, etc. while stopped is dangerous. In my area last year two teen girls, as teen girls are always in a hurry for some unknown reason, decided to cross this traffic intersection as the light changed against them. TWO female drivers, looking at their phones, just notice the green light. Both went to hit these ignorant girls. I went to that intersection on my SUV and I could see clearly any pedestrians anywhere by using my eyes. Anyway, these stories are by the millions each year. Get counseling and get the lessons. And pay 100% attention when driving at any speed. Past 50 MPH cars can need over 180 feet to stop ONCE the driver realizes the need to stop. You can also Google any subject as to accidents. I do. Good luck.